today is the first day without him. officially. i have called him ytd at 16 53. i told him i need a pause right now. the pw is stressing me. plus there were alot other problems too. i don wanna face them, but i know i cant run away from them. but anyway, i have enough too. i’m like reli veh tired. not that i don love him anymore. its jus that i reli feel strengthless this week. everything is sucking my energy. if time were to come, i will just say goodbye.
i found wat bib said was true. “when i text you, it means i miss you. and when i don’t text you, it simply means i’m waiting for you to miss me.”
but no, he has never make th first move in texting me. ok, let’s be fair. sure, he has. but almost 100% will be asking, “what time am i to go to sch tmr?”
太想爱你是我抑压不了的念头
想要全面占领你的喜怒哀愁
你已征服了我
却还不属于我
叫我如何不去猜测你在想甚么
太想爱你是我抑压不了的折磨
能否请你不要不要选择闪躲
只想爱你的我
太想爱你的我
难道只能在迷雾中猜你的轮廓
li hua yao. i miss you alot. but i’m fighting hardly within myself. i feel terrible inside, but i believe what i’m doing is right.
