Its like jus 3 more days to our 7th monthsary. But I am alred feeling bad. Like damn damn bad. I dono how I should go about fixing this complicated puzzle. Let’s face the truth. 80% of the symptoms have arose from this relationship to indicate a silent break had happened. I really dono how to cope with this anymore. Studies, basketball, friends are always listed first under ur list. I always tell u how I felt, but things never change for better. I’m hearing everything u say, but are u absorbing my words? I doubt so yeah. I let my mind go wild, wilder as days pass. Letting my thoughts take control deep within my heart of my mind. I’ve lost the spirit in my world, so depressed with sensitive thoughts that hurt. I try hard to blot u outta my mind, but things never turn out the way I wanted. No matter how hard I tried for us to make up after every quarrel, things were still go back to how it was after a day or two. We are torturing one another. No, scratch that. You are torturing me, tearing me apart. But I find no strength in fighting back anymore. Or rather, I find no point in saying any more. Every words I say, I gotta say it twice and more for u to absorb. Kimberly is jus an example of us. But somehow, she has a better boyfriend. Why is it that a 13 year old couple can fix problem and we can never patch up that hole tat has surfaced in us? A 13 year old Gary and a 13 year old Kimberly can think things in a more sensible manner as compared to us? What should I say? that they are more matured? That’s a truth. Gary makes an effort in changing for Kimberly, who is just like a clone of me. Every question I holds in my mind, she has it too. Every thought I stored within head, she’s having it too. Maybe things were never meant to be, u know. It never meant to be. To you, feelings have probably faded even more than before because you too, got tired of my bullshit.
it has been 7 months, yet you still do not know what i want && you do not even want to know what i want? if that’s what u say, then i really got nothing to say. totally.
